, two summers ago; right when I was going through a tremendous life change. I got about a third of the way through it when what little energy I had left ran out. This week I met an acquaintance for coffee who is becoming a friend. He is dealing with some big issues in his life and mentioned that he is reading Pastor Pete's book. I found out today why the Lord brought this back into my life at this time. It's the chapter about our journey through the Wall. Pastor Pete says, "the ancients called it the dark night of the soul."
I have been searching and searching for an explanation for the confusion I've been experiencing lately. There is nothing wrong and life is the best it has been in a long time; but, I've been experiencing a nagging sense of confusion about God's specific will for me. If I've prayed once I've prayed a hundred times, "Lord, I ask for the knowledge of your will for me."
Pastor Pete's point here is that God's will for us all is that "we be made perfect in love, that Christ's love becomes our love both toward God and others." The purpose of the Wall is to strip away everything getting in the way of that. Thank you, Jesus, for confirming your love for me and your presence with me even though, as Pastor Pete says, sometimes "I cannot see in front of me."
